it's no longer the beginning (week VI)

It's done. I don't have to worry about it anymore.
It feels good to be free. I can run through the prairies without worry. I can watch TED Talks and not get traumatic flashbacks. I'm coming for you, James Veitch and Jon Ronson. I can burn my paints. Finally.
Anyways, let's talk about the Talk. I think it was okay. I'm just glad that it's over. I feel relieved more than anything. I don't remember a lot of my actually being onstage. It seemed to whiz by. I think I spoke quickly, blah blah, the typical self-hate stuff. I'm glad one or two people laughed at my jokes. I love all my fans.

me, insulting Jackson Pollock once again

I don't have a lot to say, surprisingly. Haha. I'm glad it's over. I'm definitely glad it's over. I'm clear, for now. It was one of the most stressful experiences of my year, surprisingly. Oh, jeez, I hope no future 9th/10th graders are reading this. Crap.
It's a fun experience, definitely. As Tim Urban masterfully put it, "It has always been a dream of mine to have done a TED Talk." This has basically been my mindset throughout the wonderful period of speech preparation. Once I was done with the Talk, I was free for spring break. I am now free for spring break.
I'd like to thank Amanda (S) for masterfully controlling my PowerPoint. Well, I actually couldn't really see my slides as I was presenting, out of fear. I'm sure she did a reasonable job ;^).
But, really, thanks Aboyda.
What else can I say? Throughout the past week I thought a lot of stuff about the TED Talk, but most of it won't be shared here, because I'm keeping this blog family friendly. Now that it's over, I feel empty. Not empty in an "I Have Nothing To Live For" way, but empty in a "Wow, I Don't Have To Feel Right Now" way. If that makes sense.
What makes sense is that the TED Talk is done, and this blog is done.
I'm getting a bit emotional about leaving my blog. I probably wont keep up with that. Just look at my old blog from 8th grade that I had to make for a writing class! Actually, I won't give the link, because it contains a lot of emo stuff that poorly reflects my character.

how did that go, Ellie? did you maintain it during high school?

I don't think the future of this blog is a great one. I like to have hope, so I'll hope I do something with it. Here's another highlight from the blog (where I talk a lot about high school);

I've gone through a lot of regrettable phases in my life which I still do not forgive myself for

Oh, me, you're still in a regrettable phase of your life that you still don't forgive yourself for.
God, I'm reading a lot of what I wrote, and it's not the best. I have a list of song recommendations. I have OK Go, Frank Sinatra, Phoenix, Johnny Mercer, and a lot of stuff that takes me back to a time. Let's stop lurking on my past.
Yeah. Now what? Goodbye? I'm sure there's quote about how awkward goodbyes are. I'll just end on something cheesy that we can all relate to.

Thanks for following the blog.
:^)